(I love to hear how God is working in people’s lives! A dear friend of the our ministry has given me permission to share the following which begins with a portion of last week’s ministry article)
I totally overlooked the greatest wonder that, in the availability of my desperation, Jesus had shown me His beauty and glory – a better hope! He had removed some blinders from my eyes so I could see Him more fully – and I was quickly distracted by how much better I felt. God forgive me!
Wow, this dovetails so well with what happened to me last night. I have been struggling with something for a long time and for some reason last night the words of I Corinthians 15:57 came to the forefront of my mind:
“But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.” (ESV)
Somehow He illuminated my mind to understand more fully that HE GIVES us the victory. Not because we deserve it, not just because we “ask” for it or “want” it, but because it’s the only way we can HAVE the Victory – we can’t earn it or “do” it or “deserve” it. Part of the battle is overeating and not being able to get it under control; as I lay there meditating on the verse, I started feeling like tension was leaving my body and my limbs were becoming loose and relaxed.
This happened over many minutes as I thought about why He had to GIVE me the victory. It was a sort of continual “praise and prayer” time. He told me that he was “giving” me the victory, not just because I asked for it, but because it’s the only way I could have it. And not, as you said, just to live a nice life and “be healed.” White picket fence mentality aside, I simply lay there and accepted His gift as He continued to “loosen” me and restore my soul (Psalm 23) (which will be an ongoing process for as long as I live, of course!)
He showed me that the things I was holding onto (like food, and other things) are counter-productive to living a life in Him and His Light. Light and darkness can’t exist in the same space. Light dispels darkness (and the darkness has not overcome it!). So to put “food” into my body or soul that was “darkness” was a choice that I had to turn away from (repent, there’s that word again) and then I could accept His Gift of the victory by letting His light into the situation.
Somewhere the last few months He has been reminding me of the fact that “living “IN” Him” is the most important thing (not easy to do but easier than walking in darkness without fellowshipping with Him).
Obedience is one of the keys to this, not “works religion” but works that flow out of a life lived in fellowship with Him. I stumble and fall, but He keeps kicking me, uh, I mean, urging me onward and upward. How blessed we are that He doesn’t leave us in the dirt when we don’t obey and just go our own way. UGH! I should have been a pile of dirt left behind long ago. We deserve that, but He doesn’t DO that. THANK GOD!