I was born in a non-Christian family in a small city in China, nobody around me were Christians. My family were not Buddhist but we had Buddha statues at home, and sometimes we would pray to the Buddha statues.
When I was around 9 or 10 years old, I liked to going out the balcony in my home and looking at the sky and the other buildings in my living area. I remembered at that time I liked to look at the sky and talk to God. I didn’t know how I knew there was a God at that time, how he put himself in my heart, but I knew the God was my best friend to a little girl. When I had troubles, I prayed to him, or more likely to make a wish. Then I grew a habit of praying to God almost every night that all of my family members, my parents, my grandparents, all my aunts, and uncles, all my cousins could live healthy and long lives over hundred years old because I love them.
However at that time, when I was 9 or 10 my dad also knew a friend who claimed to have supernatural power, so called “the third eye” on the forehead, and the third eye could see the supernatural things and do supernatural things. So I and my dad’s friend’s daughter always played together and sometimes practiced to have the “third eye” power. We never had the third eye power though.
When I was around 13, my mom started to practice “Falun Gong”, a cult religion invented by an ordinary man who claimed he had supernatural power on 1992 in China. I was innocent and naïve at that time, just went with my mom to practice this for fun.
However when I was around 15 years old, the third year of junior high school, one night, I heard a voice told me that I should like one girl in my class, who was my best friend at that time, then I resisted to that voice that I didn’t like girls, I liked boys, then all the other dirty thoughts came to my mind, and from then on the evil thoughts tortured me since then. I didn’t know what to do. I also heard the voice like killing people or told me to jump off a building or other ways to kill myself, or homosexual thoughts, or other dirty and evil thoughts which I never thought of before, these were not my thoughts. I felt so helpless.
I fought with the evil thoughts almost every day, at school, at home, I couldn’t sleep at night because my heart beat so fast, and the demons tortured me. I read lots of psychology and philosophy books, and other kinds of books about strong will and justice, etc to help me, and I could resist the evil a little bit with my strong will. I later on learned that was the demons, but at that time I didn’t know what was wrong with my life and felt my life was full of darkness.
When I went to college, I chose English as my major and I also needed to learn western culture including the Bible. My Chinese English teacher gave me a bible as she was a Christian and she knew I was interested in Christianity. In my sophomore year, I had an American teacher Rachel, and her sister Nicole was also an English teacher in my college, and Nicole took me to their bible study one night as I told her I was interested in the Bible and God. I knew the God when I was a child, but at that time I regarded Him as my God and I didn’t want to share with others. I enjoyed the Bible study and the second time I went to the bible study and I decided to become a Christian.
That year’s summer vacation time, I did a part-time job in the city Chengdu, China where I went to college, and another of my American friend Hannah allowed me to stay at her apartment. One night I shared my experience of hearing the voice and fought against the evil thoughts for so many years to her, and I felt part of my brain was taken by the devil. Hannah prayed for me to cast the demons away from me in Jesus name, and I immediately felt something left me.
Hannah told me I couldn’t look at her eyes straight as if I was afraid of something, and she told me that was the devil. Then Hannah called another American friend of mine, Pauline, who was a Christian and also a psychologist. Pauline asked me to kneel down to God, confessed all my sins and forgave everyone in my life who hurt me. Prayed to God to let every places in my heart occupied by demon to open, kick the demons out and invite the Holy Spirit to come to live in my heart.
We prayed for around two hours, I kept on shaking and felt some supernatural things left me. Then Pauline asked for the demon’s name, I heard a voice inside of me saying an English name, then we looked in the dictionary, it meant the third eye, which was the supernatural power I practiced before when I was a child.
After that, I looked at the mirror, I saw the light in my eyes, and I could look straight to my friends’ eyes. The memories I lost when I was tortured by the demons returned to me. I felt so free. God set me free and broke the chains on me. I was tortured by the demons for around 7 years, and God saved me. Although I was suffered for so long, I then realized the great plan God arranged for me, he saved me from the devil and I could work for him and do a great testimony for Him and serve him all my life.